A black Huffington Post columnist took a DNA test—and felt “shame” upon finding out she was 31.5% white.

In an article for the liberal news site called, “I Celebrated Black History Month… By Finding Out I Was White,” writer Christine Michel Carter explains that she took a 23andMe DNA test to find out her exact ethnic and racial background.

She had been told by her family that she was part-black, part-Native American. But the DNA test confirmed that she was 67.2% black, 31.5% white, and just 0.6% Native American.

Carter wrote that her reaction had many emotions—but the two strongest were “disorient and shame” at finding out she had white ancestry. Carter, who has light skin, had said she had gotten “defensive” in the past when asked if she was mixed-race, rather than black.

She turned to her family to demand answers—but they were unable to provide any. Suspecting that her family had hidden their white heritage to protect the lighter-skinned Carter’s “potential embarrassment,” Carter continued to panic about her heritage, lamenting: “I was damn near 1/3 White. That’s significant.” And she continued to look for answers.

While Carter continues to wish that she was more black, citing her jealousy of her friends’ darker skin, she admits she must eventually come to terms with being white—though she writes that “the road to acceptance will not be an easy one for me to travel.”